From a distance, your iCal looks like a good time.  Calm cubes of koolaid arranged in a grid, reminding you how to spend your time.  Some cubes of activity repeat themselves, building routine.   What I can't see from here is the stress holding your cubes together.  Or which cubes you dread.   Which ones excite you?

The academic calendar no longer governs my schedule.  I feel abandoned but liberated, connecting the dots that spring up along the way.   This is my new schedule; for now it's mostly color– and shape–based.

home-colored koolaid